Updated: 5 days ago
I was inspired by Karen Michel's mini prayer flags or magic charms, as she calls them, and had fun making some of my own for Valentine's gifts. It's an almost addictive pleasure - playing around with beads and buttons and bits of fabric from cast-off sweaters and shirts.
And it allowed me to thumb my nose at my discomfort with making useless objects. What if everything doesn't have to be good for something? (Sorry Thoreau. For a long time I took to heart your "Be not simply good; be good for something." Now I think that usefulness might not be the end-all-be-all.) As I messed around with fabric bits, I preferred to think of Oscar Wilde's "The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensely." And so I kept making and admiring for the sheer joy of it.
And I had fun being messy - buttons and beads, embroidery floss, pins, milagros and fabric scraps strewn everywhere. It's a relief to be messy sometimes and it's something I'm trying to embrace this year. In my most recent Astro-Muse class, my own 8th house ruminations reminded me that there's freedom in the mess. Indeed.
I'm also letting myself, when possible, check in with my desire. What do I want to do? Through Natural Dreamwork sessions, I'm being made aware of the presence of the boy - very playful, not rule-bound at all, fun-loving and often laughing. Sometimes I use that feeling of the boy in my dream to show me what to do next in my real/waking life. And this joyful playtime was the answer.